You are my bucket list

I didn’t realize the little anxieties that came with parenting. Maybe it was something I took for granted or maybe just never thought too much about it. In three years I have felt fears I never knew existed. In three years I have felt confidence I never knew I had. Being a mother is the best gift God ever gave me. Being their mother taught me that.
Each night I see my kids and notice them. I see Cameran sleeping and tell her just how lovely she is. I see her room filled with pictures of friends all with smiles on their faces. A smile that has been a work in progress, but one that now is in full effect. She has a true gift. Bradyn’ room is filled with dirty socks covered in sand, books on the floor and his cologne collection. When I tuck him in, I still see his stuffed puppy that was waiting for him on his first day. Something as little as a stuffed animal makes my heart melt and wonder how much longer will he be my little boy. Sidda sleeps like a wild child, just like her arrival. It was wild and cautious. I tuck her back in the middle, move the hair from her face and whisper how God and Jesus knew she would be healthy and perfect. My night is complete and I can finish the chores I didn’t finish during the day. My anxieties cease knowing each of my children are sleeping peacefully. Cameran dreams of the dance that’s coming soon. Bradyn dreams of the soccer field and sports Vines. Sidda dreams of cupcakes and puppy dogs.
I thought this picture was a perfect portrayal of me. To my children. ❤️

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